why i am leaving

[TheMacTester]

There's a high chance you won't see me again. I promise you, all of you, this is the worst decision you have ever made. Ignoring me, even after all the love I've given will be the death of you.
For all of you who are new and reading this (you probably won't be because someone will find this offensive. I would do the cough cough thing, but nah, that's Mooncrasher. He is too much of a self-egoist, and because I said that, it stained his reputation, and he will say that this is rude and take this down. This also applies to ALL of the moderators, so I'm not picking him out) I am TMT. Maybe you know me as the winner of MOTY, or any other reason.
But enough talking, let's get on to why I'm leaving
everybody knows that I am the good guy, always kind, and I admit when I'm not. But here's the problem: nobody else cares. I am ignored and forgotten, and whatever I do is bad because of "mods," "too simple," or "too complex." You guys tell me to do everything, and when I work my ass off to do it, you say that it isn't good enough. I spent days working on stuff just for them to be forgotten (thank you, Lemniscate Biscuit, for being the only person to give me tips), and don't you dare whine in the comments about how most projects get ignored and that you have to work harder because I am the one who always makes sure a project is seen, why don't I get back? I won MOTY as a first-year; you know how impressive that is, but even then, who got all the congrats, JSP did (now, I would say no hate to him, but I do, he is the main reason why I'm leaving). I did not get shit, nothing, look at my status, not a single person even said good job or congrats. You know how much that hurts, but it's not like you would care. It seems like nobody cares, a week ago, I posted that I would be leaving, and nobody except my closest cared. I know you are reading this, could you have spent at least a minute writing a goodbye, or we will miss you Altaïr or Mooncrasher, I used to look up to you, but now, I look down, go get a life, touch some grass. I feel like a punching bag sometimes; people make fun of me, and nothing happens, but when I do the same, people get angry, and when I apologize, they don't respond. Take a look

I said that I was at fault, even though I was not, and these two acted like it didn't exist. It's fine if you didn't forgive me, but fucking respond, please.
Now you can see just the tip of my pain, I try my best guys, my hardest, but nobody gives a fuck
don't be like JSP or Mooncrasher. Don't hurt people because it's fun, and don't suppress people. I have a strong underlying feeling that Mooncrasher or Altaïr will ban this thread because they are too scared of what others will say, Don't do that.

Finally, let me tell you one thing, you have missed a diamond looking for gold, and you will regret that with all of your heart
I will still work on my Titan, delta, Space Shuttle (had plane physics), and Ariane mods, but they will not be released to any of you. Because of a few people, all of you will pay
I would say for you to have a good day, but i think not, thanks for reading, now its my time to go

 

[MonkeSpaceflight]

There's a high chance you won't see me again. I promise you, all of you, this is the worst decision you have ever made. Ignoring me, even after all the love I've given will be the death of you.
For all of you who are new and reading this (you probably won't be because someone will find this offensive. I would do the cough cough thing, but nah, that's Mooncrasher. He is too much of a self-egoist, and because I said that, it stained his reputation, and he will say that this is rude and take this down. This also applies to ALL of the moderators, so I'm not picking him out) I am TMT. Maybe you know me as the winner of MOTY, or any other reason.
But enough talking, let's get on to why I'm leaving
everybody knows that I am the good guy, always kind, and I admit when I'm not. But here's the problem: nobody else cares. I am ignored and forgotten, and whatever I do is bad because of "mods," "too simple," or "too complex." You guys tell me to do everything, and when I work my ass off to do it, you say that it isn't good enough. I spent days working on stuff just for them to be forgotten (thank you, Lemniscate Biscuit, for being the only person to give me tips), and don't you dare whine in the comments about how most projects get ignored and that you have to work harder because I am the one who always makes sure a project is seen, why don't I get back? I won MOTY as a first-year; you know how impressive that is, but even then, who got all the congrats, JSP did (now, I would say no hate to him, but I do, he is the main reason why I'm leaving). I did not get shit, nothing, look at my status, not a single person even said good job or congrats. You know how much that hurts, but it's not like you would care. It seems like nobody cares, a week ago, I posted that I would be leaving, and nobody except my closest cared. I know you are reading this, could you have spent at least a minute writing a goodbye, or we will miss you Altaïr or Mooncrasher, I used to look up to you, but now, I look down, go get a life, touch some grass. I feel like a punching bag sometimes; people make fun of me, and nothing happens, but when I do the same, people get angry, and when I apologize, they don't respond. Take a look View attachment 132967
I said that I was at fault, even though I was not, and these two acted like it didn't exist. It's fine if you didn't forgive me, but fucking respond, please.
Now you can see just the tip of my pain, I try my best guys, my hardest, but nobody gives a fuck
don't be like JSP or Mooncrasher. Don't hurt people because it's fun, and don't suppress people. I have a strong underlying feeling that Mooncrasher or Altaïr will ban this thread because they are too scared of what others will say, Don't do that.

Finally, let me tell you one thing, you have missed a diamond looking for gold, and you will regret that with all of your heart
I will still work on my Titan, delta, Space Shuttle (had plane physics), and Ariane mods, but they will not be released to any of you. Because of a few people, all of you will pay
I would say for you to have a good day, but i think not, thanks for reading, now its my time to go

I think there's a lot of benefit to staying in the SFS community, even if there are members that you can't get along with. It's a great place to share what you're working on and get encouragement. It seems you've been having a bad time on here, but I'll remind you that you can choose what you say, who you talk to, and how you respond to things. I'm sure a lot of the community would love to have you stay, myself included.

 

[TheMacTester]

I think there's a lot of benefit to staying in the SFS community, even if there are members that you can't get along with. It's a great place to share what you're working on and get encouragement. It seems you've been having a bad time on here, but I'll remind you that you can choose what you say, who you talk to, and how you respond to things. I'm sure a lot of the community would love to have you stay, myself included.

it's just useless, i love some of you so much, but I also love my mental health, and its useless to just be forgotten, so ill take my chances with KSP

 

[JSP]

Excuse me don't you fucking dare say I have hurt or suppressed people.

I did say congratulations to you on moty.

I did read that apology DM.

theres no need to do this shite

 

[Mooncrasher]

I hope you find your peace and feel better, whether you go or stay.

I'm not sure what I was supposed to do with your apology DM, I didn't ask you to send it, and it was more between you and JSP, and he's not obligated to respond to every message he gets.

Edit:

I feel like a punching bag sometimes; people make fun of me, and nothing happens, but when I do the same, people get angry, and when I apologize, they don't respond.

Please report if you see people sending disrespectful messages at you, staff don't see every single message as it's sent on the forum, the report button exists for a reason. The entire team will active reports when they log on, and can discuss it.

 

[Axiom]

Reading this I think your problem is that you're doing everything for external validation, doing things so people see what you've done and stuff. It's fine to do that but I feel that you'd be much more content if you did things for your own enjoyment, not for praise from everyone else

I'm sorry you don't feel valued here, but you are (you did win MOTY) and I'm sorry if you didn't realise that

 

[Daddio]

There's a high chance you won't see me again. I promise you, all of you, this is the worst decision you have ever made. Ignoring me, even after all the love I've given will be the death of you.
For all of you who are new and reading this (you probably won't be because someone will find this offensive. I would do the cough cough thing, but nah, that's Mooncrasher. He is too much of a self-egoist, and because I said that, it stained his reputation, and he will say that this is rude and take this down. This also applies to ALL of the moderators, so I'm not picking him out) I am TMT. Maybe you know me as the winner of MOTY, or any other reason.
But enough talking, let's get on to why I'm leaving
everybody knows that I am the good guy, always kind, and I admit when I'm not. But here's the problem: nobody else cares. I am ignored and forgotten, and whatever I do is bad because of "mods," "too simple," or "too complex." You guys tell me to do everything, and when I work my ass off to do it, you say that it isn't good enough. I spent days working on stuff just for them to be forgotten (thank you, Lemniscate Biscuit, for being the only person to give me tips), and don't you dare whine in the comments about how most projects get ignored and that you have to work harder because I am the one who always makes sure a project is seen, why don't I get back? I won MOTY as a first-year; you know how impressive that is, but even then, who got all the congrats, JSP did (now, I would say no hate to him, but I do, he is the main reason why I'm leaving). I did not get shit, nothing, look at my status, not a single person even said good job or congrats. You know how much that hurts, but it's not like you would care. It seems like nobody cares, a week ago, I posted that I would be leaving, and nobody except my closest cared. I know you are reading this, could you have spent at least a minute writing a goodbye, or we will miss you Altaïr or Mooncrasher, I used to look up to you, but now, I look down, go get a life, touch some grass. I feel like a punching bag sometimes; people make fun of me, and nothing happens, but when I do the same, people get angry, and when I apologize, they don't respond. Take a look View attachment 132967
I said that I was at fault, even though I was not, and these two acted like it didn't exist. It's fine if you didn't forgive me, but fucking respond, please.
Now you can see just the tip of my pain, I try my best guys, my hardest, but nobody gives a fuck
don't be like JSP or Mooncrasher. Don't hurt people because it's fun, and don't suppress people. I have a strong underlying feeling that Mooncrasher or Altaïr will ban this thread because they are too scared of what others will say, Don't do that.

Finally, let me tell you one thing, you have missed a diamond looking for gold, and you will regret that with all of your heart
I will still work on my Titan, delta, Space Shuttle (had plane physics), and Ariane mods, but they will not be released to any of you. Because of a few people, all of you will pay
I would say for you to have a good day, but i think not, thanks for reading, now its my time to go

Mac…. I will never forget you. You have been by my side for all of this, and have been by yours. I know that you have been struggling, but we can do it together. And maybe in the years past, we might see each other again. You have been a my most valued friend in years, and I am more than grateful that I met you. So..goodbye…friend…
- Daddio

 

[TheMacTester]

Excuse me don't you fucking dare say I have hurt or suppressed people.

I did say congratulations to you on moty.

I did read that apology DM.

theres no need to do this shite

JSP, I do remember you congratulating me, but let’s be real—I barely got any recognition while you got all the attention. We tied, but you got all the praise like you won it alone, and I was left in the dust. That’s what pissed me off. It’s not just about you; it’s about the fact that no matter how hard I work, it never seems to be enough for this community. So don’t come at me acting like I’m making this up—I know what I felt, and I have every right to call it out. also, its spelled shit, do it right

I hope you find your peace and feel better, whether you go or stay.

I'm not sure what I was supposed to do with your apology DM, I didn't ask you to send it, and it was more between you and JSP, and he's not obligated to respond to every message he gets.

Edit:
Please report if you see people sending disrespectful messages at you, staff don't see every single message as it's sent on the forum, the report button exists for a reason. The entire team will active reports when they log on, and can discuss it.

I’m not looking for your sympathy, and frankly, I don’t need it. What I do need is for people to stop treating me like my feelings don’t matter. Your response is just another perfect example of how I’m constantly dismissed. You say you didn’t ask for my apology—that’s not the issue. The issue is that when I put in effort to make things right, I get nothing in return. Just silence and dismissiveness.

Your attitude towards this whole situation makes it clear that you don’t really care. I’m not some inconvenience you can brush off with a couple of words. If you actually understood the problem, you’d see that it’s not just about one DM or one situation—it’s about a pattern of being ignored, overlooked, and treated like my time and work aren’t worth anyone’s attention.
I’m tired of being ignored and dismissed every time I speak up.
also, next time I will report something like that

Reading this I think your problem is that you're doing everything for external validation, doing things so people see what you've done and stuff. It's fine to do that but I feel that you'd be much more content if you did things for your own enjoyment, not for praise from everyone else

I'm sorry you don't feel valued here, but you are (you did win MOTY) and I'm sorry if you didn't realise that

I get what you’re trying to say, but that’s not the problem. You act like I’m just whining for validation, but it’s not about that. It’s about the fact that I bust my ass, and when it comes time for recognition, I get ignored while others get praised for less. It’s about being treated with respect—not about needing a pat on the back every time.

Yeah, it’s great to do things for your own enjoyment, but that doesn’t mean I should just accept being overlooked when I’ve put in the work. And telling me I should just ‘be content with what I’ve done’ sounds like you’re trying to tell me I shouldn’t care that my efforts have been disregarded.

Winning MOTY didn’t feel like a win when I got nothing—no congratulations, no acknowledgment, nothing. So don’t sit there acting like my frustration is some self-centered need for praise. It’s about being treated fairly, and right now, I’m not getting that."

Mac…. I will never forget you. You have been by my side for all of this, and have been by yours. I know that you have been struggling, but we can do it together. And maybe in the years past, we might see each other again. You have been a my most valued friend in years, and I am more than grateful that I met you. So..goodbye…friend…
- Daddio

Daddio… I don’t even have the words. You’ve been one of the few people who have actually seen me for who I am, and that means more than I can ever express. Through everything, you’ve stood by me, and that’s rare. I don’t know what’s next, but if nothing else, know that I’ll never forget you either. Thank you for everything. Goodbye, my friend… for now... JUST KIDDING, lets stay in touch, and ill try to help on S1AR

I think there's a lot of benefit to staying in the SFS community, even if there are members that you can't get along with. It's a great place to share what you're working on and get encouragement. It seems you've been having a bad time on here, but I'll remind you that you can choose what you say, who you talk to, and how you respond to things. I'm sure a lot of the community would love to have you stay, myself included.

"I get what you're saying, but the problem isn’t just a few people I don’t get along with—it’s a whole pattern of being ignored, dismissed, and treated like my work doesn’t matter. Sure, the community could be a great place for sharing and encouragement, but that’s not what I’ve been getting. Instead, I’ve had to fight just to get basic recognition while others get praised for doing less.

And yeah, I can choose how I respond, but that doesn’t change the fact that no matter how much I contribute, I get treated like an afterthought. It’s easy to say I should stay, but if people actually wanted me here, I wouldn’t have to constantly prove my worth just to be noticed. At this point, I’m not convinced that staying is worth it."

woooo baby, that felt good

 

[JSP]

JSP, I do remember you congratulating me, but let’s be real—I barely got any recognition while you got all the attention. We tied, but you got all the praise like you won it alone, and I was left in the dust. That’s what pissed me off. It’s not just about you; it’s about the fact that no matter how hard I work, it never seems to be enough for this community. So don’t come at me acting like I’m making this up—I know what I felt, and I have every right to call it out. also, its spelled shit, do it right

I assume the reason I got more recognition is the fact I've been known here for 5 years. Yes you have every right to be disappointed over that fact.

Also I'm British, we sometimes spell shit "shite".

 

[Perseverancerover]

This of so sad

 

[TheMacTester]

I assume the reason I got more recognition is the fact I've been known here for 5 years. Yes you have every right to be disappointed over that fact.

Also I'm British, we sometimes spell shit "shite".

Yeah, I do have every right to be disappointed, and I appreciate you admitting that. But just because you’ve been here longer doesn’t mean my work deserved to be ignored. I put in the effort, I earned that recognition, and yet I was barely acknowledged. It’s not about time served—it’s about respect.

And trust me, I don’t give a damn how you spell ‘shite.’ That’s the least of my concerns right now. (Mr. Bo'oh'o'wa'er)

This of so sad

this of so sad, tbh u should not care, its fine
this will not affect you

 

[JSP]

Yeah, I do have every right to be disappointed, and I appreciate you admitting that. But just because you’ve been here longer doesn’t mean my work deserved to be ignored. I put in the effort, I earned that recognition, and yet I was barely acknowledged. It’s not about time served—it’s about respect.

And trust me, I don’t give a damn how you spell ‘shite.’ That’s the least of my concerns right now. (Mr. Bo'oh'o'wa'er)

this of so sad, tbh u should not care, its fine
this will not affect you

I'm trying to be nice and you've just called me a name.

Grow up.

 

[Perseverancerover]

Yeah, I do have every right to be disappointed, and I appreciate you admitting that. But just because you’ve been here longer doesn’t mean my work deserved to be ignored. I put in the effort, I earned that recognition, and yet I was barely acknowledged. It’s not about time served—it’s about respect.

And trust me, I don’t give a damn how you spell ‘shite.’ That’s the least of my concerns right now. (Mr. Bo'oh'o'wa'er)

this of so sad, tbh u should not care, its fine
this will not affect you

Yes it will effect me. You were nice, and even though you once wrongly accused me, kind. I voted for you. I will be sad to see you leave.

 

[J3 Mângo]

I don’t know what to say, but I think you might have a persecution complex from what I’ve seen, to be recognised you should be confident and not arrogant.

But I wish you good luck for the future.

 

[QMSP]

Farewell, we’ll all miss you

 

[Jordan Filz]

Yeah, I do have every right to be disappointed, and I appreciate you admitting that. But just because you’ve been here longer doesn’t mean my work deserved to be ignored. I put in the effort, I earned that recognition, and yet I was barely acknowledged. It’s not about time served—it’s about respect.

And trust me, I don’t give a damn how you spell ‘shite.’ That’s the least of my concerns right now. (Mr. Bo'oh'o'wa'er)

this of so sad, tbh u should not care, its fine
this will not affect you

Mac...
People are trying to be nice and help, we all congratulated you on your moty win!
But I think you want to be the king of the forums and you don't have to be for people to recognize you!
This is just the truth you need to lower your expectations and just have fun!
The forums is just a place to post your stuff and connect with people, you don't need random strangers on the internet to tell you that you are a good person.
Anyways I hope you find some peace after leaving.

 

[Marmilo]

I promise you, all of you, this is the worst decision you have ever made. Ignoring me, even after all the love I've given will be the death of you.

Nah I think I've made some pretty bad decisions in the past...

but nah, that's @Mooncrasher. He is too much of a self-egoist, and because I said that, it stained his reputation, and he will say that this is rude and take this down. This also applies to ALL of the moderators, so I'm not picking him out) I am TMT.

Ah yes, yet another post that just assumes fragile behaviour from the staff; you're not the first to try to use this argument, but you would be the first should you succeed. In personally have seen hardly any negative feelings towards you, even less so from staff; Altair might just be the nicest person I ever met on this forum.

But enough talking, let's get on to why I'm leaving
everybody knows that I am the good guy, always kind, and I admit when I'm not.

I have no clue what you're trying to achieve with this statement; it reads as self aggrandising and egocentric, which is ironic considering that's what you called moon.

But here's the problem: nobody else cares. I am ignored and forgotten,

Why should you care about what others think? It's nice to be praised of course, but sometimes people just won't notice or appreciate you, and that's life; we learn to deal with it. Trust me, a large part of people that are now well established within the community felt underappreciated at some point; many of us came to realise that we were not in fact as good as we thought we were, and after gaining some humility were able to improve and become better members. For me the times when I felt undervalued often helped my realise that I thought of myself too highly, and though disheartening, they helped me become a much better player and member of the community.

won MOTY as a first-year; you know how impressive that is

The community voted you a valuable member, a great token of appreciation most members never get the chance to behold. It's unfortunate to see that instead of feeling appreciated, you felt undervalued instead.

It seems like nobody cares, a week ago, I posted that I would be leaving, and nobody except my closest cared.

I was unable to locate this thread you mentioned, so I'll just express my general sentiment here - that reaction (or the lack thereof) isn't very surprising; these types of posts are often seen as overdramatic/attention seeking. I'm not sure whether your post was indeed of such nature, but this does bring to my general message to you.
You are a new, young member in a community that has existed for a while now. It might be hard to find your place and feel appreciated; old members have seen a lot and might come off as slightly jaded at times, at times being a bit harsh on your attempts to prove yourself. Now, had you shown some humility or openness in this post you would've had my sympathy, but that wasn't the case. You come off (in this post at least) as arrogant, self important, confrontational, and immature. You take things personally that you should keep some distance to, and don't appreciate how much positive feedback you actually get. You seem to think that there's some conspiracy against you; I assure you that is not the case. Consider how your behaviour makes people feel about you - if you are indeed as disliked as you say, reflect upon your behaviour. I'll be honest with you, I did my best to be nice to you, but your arrogance rubbed me the wrong way. I sincerely hope that some day, be it this week or in a few years, you will find peace and personal growth; may your break from the forum bring you clarity - you're obviously quite animated about this, some distance could do you good. Good luck mate, I wish you luck regardless of whether you return or not.

 

[QMSP]

I was unable to locate this thread you mentioned

He said it in a profile post, not a thread.

 

[Marmilo]

He said it in a profile post, not a thread.

Ah, that would help explain the limited attention; many people don't really browse those.

 

[Astro826]

There are many points to discuss here, but I will leave most of it alone as you've made your general stance clear.

While it is easy to believe otherwise, the fact is that people online are no replacements for friends/family and the support they provide. We do not and cannot know who you are or what you are going through. This medium is just too limiting. That doesn't mean you do not matter to me or the others here, I hope that I interact positively with anyone when possible (like any respectable person, which is most of the long timers here). What it does mean is that the people in online communities have no actual connections to you. Holding such high expectations of people you only know online(who are, for all purposes, strangers) is unsustainable. Additionally, this forum is barely active. Besides a few actively updated threads, many things (including mine) have gone unacknowledged due to low activity, high and low effort alike. Expecting and relying on online reactions is unhealthy in an active community, let alone a slow one.

If your feelings and expectations are so unmet, I do recommend that you take a break from online communities. The internet is incapable of creating true satisfaction. As I mentioned, I have cannot have an idea what's going on in your real life, but whatever it is it's always more important than an online forum. Focus on the people you can truly interact with. Text on a screen will never come close to that, no matter who writes it.

 

[TheMacTester]

I'm trying to be nice and you've just called me a name.

Grow up.

Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize asking for a little respect meant I had to be extra formal. I’m not the one playing the ‘I’m trying to be nice’ card while ignoring people’s feelings, though. Maybe it's time for you to grow up and stop acting like you’re above the rest of us. let me pull a fast one on you here Joke Not Getting The Joke GIF - Joke Not Getting The Joke Flew Over Your Head - Discover & Share GIFs
I guess you understood where I got that from

Yes it will effect me. You were nice, and even though you once wrongly accused me, kind. I voted for you. I will be sad to see you leave.

I appreciate that. It means something to know at least one person sees the effort. And yeah, we’ve had our differences, but I don’t hold onto grudges. It’s just hard when you give your all and don’t feel like it’s ever enough. I’m sad to go too, but sometimes things just don’t work out.

I don’t know what to say, but I think you might have a persecution complex from what I’ve seen, to be recognised you should be confident and not arrogant.

But I wish you good luck for the future.

I’ve always been nice, and it’s not about arrogance, it’s about the lack of basic respect. I’ve been nothing but polite and worked hard, yet I get treated like I’m invisible. Maybe if I had the ‘confidence’ you’re talking about, things would’ve turned out differently, but I’m not going to fake it just to be recognized. It’s about getting real respect, not pretending to be something I’m not.
and thanks for the wishes

Farewell, we’ll all miss you

Thanks, Mercury. It means a lot to me that you care. It's hard to say goodbye, but I appreciate all the support. I’ll miss you all too

Mac...
People are trying to be nice and help, we all congratulated you on your moty win!
But I think you want to be the king of the forums and you don't have to be for people to recognize you!
This is just the truth you need to lower your expectations and just have fun!
The forums is just a place to post your stuff and connect with people, you don't need random strangers on the internet to tell you that you are a good person.
Anyways I hope you find some peace after leaving.

Jordan, it’s not about being the ‘king of the forums,’ it’s about basic recognition. Don’t downplay the fact that I’ve worked hard and tried to contribute. Just because I’m not looking for constant praise doesn’t mean I don’t deserve some.

Maybe lowering my expectations is the advice you should take. The truth is, I’m not here to just ‘have fun.’ I’m here to be seen, respected, and valued for what I bring to the table. I’m done pretending it’s all okay when clearly, it’s not.

Nah I think I've made some pretty bad decisions in the past...



Ah yes, yet another post that just assumes fragile behaviour from the staff; you're not the first to try to use this argument, but you would be the first should you succeed. In personally have seen hardly any negative feelings towards you, even less so from staff; Altair might just be the nicest person I ever met on this forum.


I have no clue what you're trying to achieve with this statement; it reads as self aggrandising and egocentric, which is ironic considering that's what you called moon.


Why should you care about what others think? It's nice to be praised of course, but sometimes people just won't notice or appreciate you, and that's life; we learn to deal with it. Trust me, a large part of people that are now well established within the community felt underappreciated at some point; many of us came to realise that we were not in fact as good as we thought we were, and after gaining some humility were able to improve and become better members. For me the times when I felt undervalued often helped my realise that I thought of myself too highly, and though disheartening, they helped me become a much better player and member of the community.

The community voted you a valuable member, a great token of appreciation most members never get the chance to behold. It's unfortunate to see that instead of feeling appreciated, you felt undervalued instead.

I was unable to locate this thread you mentioned, so I'll just express my general sentiment here - that reaction (or the lack thereof) isn't very surprising; these types of posts are often seen as overdramatic/attention seeking. I'm not sure whether your post was indeed of such nature, but this does bring to my general message to you.
You are a new, young member in a community that has existed for a while now. It might be hard to find your place and feel appreciated; old members have seen a lot and might come off as slightly jaded at times, at times being a bit harsh on your attempts to prove yourself. Now, had you shown some humility or openness in this post you would've had my sympathy, but that wasn't the case. You come off (in this post at least) as arrogant, self important, confrontational, and immature. You take things personally that you should keep some distance to, and don't appreciate how much positive feedback you actually get. You seem to think that there's some conspiracy against you; I assure you that is not the case. Consider how your behaviour makes people feel about you - if you are indeed as disliked as you say, reflect upon your behaviour. I'll be honest with you, I did my best to be nice to you, but your arrogance rubbed me the wrong way. I sincerely hope that some day, be it this week or in a few years, you will find peace and personal growth; may your break from the forum bring you clarity - you're obviously quite animated about this, some distance could do you good. Good luck mate, I wish you luck regardless of whether you return or not.

It’s funny you’re calling me ‘arrogant’ and ‘immature,’ when all I’ve been doing is venting about being constantly overlooked. I’ve been putting in time and effort, and if you can’t recognize that, maybe it’s you who needs to take a step back.
You think I’m just overdramatic? Well, maybe you’d be less dismissive if you actually bothered to pay attention. No, I don’t expect to be praised for every little thing, but is it too much to ask to not be ignored completely? I’m not here to be king of the forums, but if I’m doing the work, I deserve at least some recognition.
As for the ‘humble yourself’ crap—spare me. I’ve been respectful, but if you can’t return that basic courtesy, maybe it’s time to stop pretending like you’re the only one who’s been wronged here. If you can’t take the heat, don’t throw it at me.
So yeah, keep throwing your ‘be humble’ nonsense around, but at the end of the day, it’s about respect. Something I’ve been asking for while you’ve been busy pretending I’m the problem.

You keep going on about the MOTY vote like it’s supposed to fix everything. Sure, it’s a ‘great token of appreciation,’ but let’s be real—where was the actual support? The moment I won, it felt like it was just another title to slap on me while everyone else continued to ignore me. If you think a vote is enough to make up for constant overlooking, then you clearly don’t get it.

I wasn’t asking for some massive fan club, but it’s hard to feel valued when the actual recognition is so minimal. You’re acting like that vote somehow erases everything that happened after, but I don’t feel like the community has shown me that same level of appreciation since.

There are many points to discuss here, but I will leave most of it alone as you've made your general stance clear.

While it is easy to believe otherwise, the fact is that people online are no replacements for friends/family and the support they provide. We do not and cannot know who you are or what you are going through. This medium is just too limiting. That doesn't mean you do not matter to me or the others here, I hope that I interact positively with anyone when possible (like any respectable person, which is most of the long timers here). What it does mean is that the people in online communities have no actual connections to you. Holding such high expectations of people you only know online(who are, for all purposes, strangers) is unsustainable. Additionally, this forum is barely active. Besides a few actively updated threads, many things (including mine) have gone unacknowledged due to low activity, high and low effort alike. Expecting and relying on online reactions is unhealthy in an active community, let alone a slow one.

If your feelings and expectations are so unmet, I do recommend that you take a break from online communities. The internet is incapable of creating true satisfaction. As I mentioned, I have cannot have an idea what's going on in your real life, but whatever it is it's always more important than an online forum. Focus on the people you can truly interact with. Text on a screen will never come close to that, no matter who writes it.

You’re telling me this forum is ‘barely active,’ but somehow I’m still getting rude messages at a constant rate. If it’s so quiet around here, why is it that I keep getting targeted with negativity? It doesn’t add up. It’s not about a lack of activity; it’s about a lack of respect and understanding.

If people really cared, they’d engage in meaningful ways, not just throw rude comments around. I didn’t ask for this kind of treatment, but somehow, it keeps happening, and the fact that it’s been brushed off makes it even worse. So, maybe it’s not just the activity level that’s the problem; maybe it’s the attitude people have when they actually do show up.

 

[Marmilo]

It’s funny you’re calling me ‘arrogant’ and ‘immature,’ when all I’ve been doing is venting about being constantly overlooked. I’ve been putting in time and effort, and if you can’t recognize that, maybe it’s you who needs to take a step back.

promise you, all of you, this is the worst decision you have ever made. Ignoring me, even after all the love I've given will be the death of you

everybody knows that I am the good guy,

I won MOTY as a first-year; you know how impressive that is

Finally, let me tell you one thing, you have missed a diamond looking for gold, and you will regret that with all of your heart

Need I say more?

 

[Jordan Filz]

Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize asking for a little respect meant I had to be extra formal. I’m not the one playing the ‘I’m trying to be nice’ card while ignoring people’s feelings, though. Maybe it's time for you to grow up and stop acting like you’re above the rest of us. let me pull a fast one on you here Joke Not Getting The Joke GIF - Joke Not Getting The Joke Flew Over Your Head - Discover & Share GIFs
I guess you understood where I got that from

I appreciate that. It means something to know at least one person sees the effort. And yeah, we’ve had our differences, but I don’t hold onto grudges. It’s just hard when you give your all and don’t feel like it’s ever enough. I’m sad to go too, but sometimes things just don’t work out.

I’ve always been nice, and it’s not about arrogance, it’s about the lack of basic respect. I’ve been nothing but polite and worked hard, yet I get treated like I’m invisible. Maybe if I had the ‘confidence’ you’re talking about, things would’ve turned out differently, but I’m not going to fake it just to be recognized. It’s about getting real respect, not pretending to be something I’m not.
and thanks for the wishes

Thanks, Mercury. It means a lot to me that you care. It's hard to say goodbye, but I appreciate all the support. I’ll miss you all too

Jordan, it’s not about being the ‘king of the forums,’ it’s about basic recognition. Don’t downplay the fact that I’ve worked hard and tried to contribute. Just because I’m not looking for constant praise doesn’t mean I don’t deserve some.

Maybe lowering my expectations is the advice you should take. The truth is, I’m not here to just ‘have fun.’ I’m here to be seen, respected, and valued for what I bring to the table. I’m done pretending it’s all okay when clearly, it’s not.

It’s funny you’re calling me ‘arrogant’ and ‘immature,’ when all I’ve been doing is venting about being constantly overlooked. I’ve been putting in time and effort, and if you can’t recognize that, maybe it’s you who needs to take a step back.
You think I’m just overdramatic? Well, maybe you’d be less dismissive if you actually bothered to pay attention. No, I don’t expect to be praised for every little thing, but is it too much to ask to not be ignored completely? I’m not here to be king of the forums, but if I’m doing the work, I deserve at least some recognition.
As for the ‘humble yourself’ crap—spare me. I’ve been respectful, but if you can’t return that basic courtesy, maybe it’s time to stop pretending like you’re the only one who’s been wronged here. If you can’t take the heat, don’t throw it at me.
So yeah, keep throwing your ‘be humble’ nonsense around, but at the end of the day, it’s about respect. Something I’ve been asking for while you’ve been busy pretending I’m the problem.

You keep going on about the MOTY vote like it’s supposed to fix everything. Sure, it’s a ‘great token of appreciation,’ but let’s be real—where was the actual support? The moment I won, it felt like it was just another title to slap on me while everyone else continued to ignore me. If you think a vote is enough to make up for constant overlooking, then you clearly don’t get it.

I wasn’t asking for some massive fan club, but it’s hard to feel valued when the actual recognition is so minimal. You’re acting like that vote somehow erases everything that happened after, but I don’t feel like the community has shown me that same level of appreciation since.


You’re telling me this forum is ‘barely active,’ but somehow I’m still getting rude messages at a constant rate. If it’s so quiet around here, why is it that I keep getting targeted with negativity? It doesn’t add up. It’s not about a lack of activity; it’s about a lack of respect and understanding.

If people really cared, they’d engage in meaningful ways, not just throw rude comments around. I didn’t ask for this kind of treatment, but somehow, it keeps happening, and the fact that it’s been brushed off makes it even worse. So, maybe it’s not just the activity level that’s the problem; maybe it’s the attitude people have when they actually do show up.

mac your just making it worse at this point

 

[Astro826]

You’re telling me this forum is ‘barely active,’ but somehow I’m still getting rude messages at a constant rate. If it’s so quiet around here, why is it that I keep getting targeted with negativity? It doesn’t add up. It’s not about a lack of activity; it’s about a lack of respect and understanding

When you want to talk rude, people will talk rude with you. When you demand attention, you will receive attention. When you target the people around you, the people around you will target you. If you don't want that, then stop playing the game: don't look here again. I'm not going to fuel this farther: since you won't leave, I'm leaving this thread for you.

 

[JSP]

I'm sorry Mac how in the name of fucking god am I acting like I'm above the rest of everyone.